Not many people know this about me aside from those that are close or who know me. My dad, the amazing John William Alcock passed away at the tender age of 41. I say that now. At 11 to me he was old – he was my dad. He was so full of wisdom and scared the bejesus out of me – surely that made him old right? I mean at that age anyone older than 25 is classed as old. My God how wrong I was.
I still remember him begging the nurse that he wasn’t ready and that he was too young to die. For me these are the memories I remember the most because they are imprinted in my head. Ive let go of a lot without realising but there are some memories that will never leave me.
The dad I knew was a big brave Fireman. He rescued people, he made people laugh and he loved nothing more on a Sunday when he wasn’t working than cuddling up with me on the sofa to watch Sinbad. Yes Sinbad. I can’t help but watch it with fond memories because of what it brings back for me. My dad was a fantasist. Much like myself. His glass was always half full and he loved cartoons. Although he hated Bugs Bunny – according to my dad he always won and it annoyed the hell out of him.
I only go by snippets of information that my subconscious has left behind because I also know there is some that I’ve chosen to forget. Our mind is a very powerful thing. Before photography I studied psychology and sociology. Ive always loved people and how our minds work has always fascinated me.
So to bring me to my post – this week a long lost cousin posted some images up of my dad. Ive never seen them before. Infact Ive not seen an image going back to his 20’s so this moved me to tears. When I saw one particular image of him cuddling a bunny he was between 10 and 11 – which ironically is how old both my sister and I were when he died. I know right – goosebumps, it took my breath away. Anyhoo I wanted to share these images with you along with my story because its why photography is so important to me. I looked at his image and was filled with so many emotions the most important being – Im so glad I saw this…..